Not Sure What To Think
Let me bring you up to speed…I have a friend who I’ve known since 1986 and is probably one of my best friends. He and I have a history as lovers, bandmates, PDX alt music scene junkies, compadres, confidants, ingesters of too much liquor, true Oregonians. In recent weeks I’ve come to realize that I love him. So I told him. That’s just how we are and that’s how I’ve been lately…just saying what I’m feeling. He found my expression of love beautiful and touching. Of course he’s not in the same place in life right now but wants to consider the possibilities. When I’m around him, I just breathe better. I feel all the weight of my life lift from my chest. He is the only man, I feel, accepts me for exactly who I am.
But I got an email from him today asking if I’d ever consider having a three-way with him and his other lover. crap. not sure what to think. On one hand, it really made me feel good that he felt comfortable with me to ask. On the other hand, well. crap. I mean it’s fun and sexy to think about but in reality I’m just too into him to want to share him with another woman in bed. And she’s his other lover. other lover.
