Tashrambler

A little stress reliever on the horizon.

Been rebuilding a VW engine, looking for work, missing my grandmother, staying out of the dating world, considering purging 90% of my possessions and moving my bedroom into my basement to make room for a roommate.  That’s a lot to have on the brain all the live long day.  shit.

But out of nowhere a fellow VW Bus Camper texted me with an offer I couldn’t refuse.  I’m headed to Buses by the Bridge in Lake Havasu, Arizona this weekend to be with Burners and VW peeps and hoopers!  holy crap!!!.  I’m flying down with three VWBCers and meeting up with another one in California then we’re piling into a rental and joining our friends.  can’t wait!

I should be working on the engine but my brain needs a break or at least a lovely distraction.  Got hung up on the distributor – the drive popped out before I got the valves adjusted and I couldn’t wrap my head around how to re-install it correctly.  I mean, what would you do?!  I’m learning this as I go and it’s another thing that kicks my self-confidence in the nuts from time to time.

But enough of that…I’m going to AZ to be with friends and VWs and hoops in the sunshine!

I have a job interview tomorrow.  Second one in five months.  I met with a friend and former co-worker today who happens to work there.  We had Mexican mochas and talked about VWs and our old TV station and reminisced about something that no longer exists.   Wait, this sounds kinda gloomy.

Our meeting actually inspired the crap out of me.  Earlier in the day, I sort of had a panic attack, second-guessing my abilities.  She told me to focus on my strengths and I realized my panic attack was a waste of adrenalin.  As we talked, I could see myself in the interview then at a desk, doing the work, feeling confident.  It felt pretty fucking good.

Thank you, MCS, and good luck to me!

Holy crap…lists litter all flat surfaces of my kitchen.  Time to recycle.  But first, I MUST share the lists that rule my life.

42″
39″
36″

Mermaid
1″ fluorescent green prismatic
1″ teal or aqua vinyl
1/2″ neon green gaffer

Red Velvet
1″ dark red (ruby) mirror tape
1″ black vinyl in between red mirror
1/2″ black gaffer over black vinyl

Wicked
1″ purple (deep) sequin
1″ neon green gaffer in between purple
1/2″ black gaffer over green

Girl Genius
1″ azure blue glitter
1″ blue med. or dark blue vinyl
1/2″ neon orange gaffer over vinyl

Jobs – resume
REI
Film board

Computer file
storage & super drive
make appointment

ENGINE
take apart & clean
box & label parts
Thursday

Get HulaHoopla t-shirts made

Hoop Biz  – add World Hoop Day
update website, FB, Meetup
order t-shirts
contact Canyon Hoops
Newsletter?
respond to emails

MACHINE SHOP!

Costume
make wheels
shred shirt
find wing
find make-up

Computer
clean computer
research podcast – garage band?

READ bookclub

resume to LAIKA!
shower/facial
bring fan housing to machine shop
p/u fed ex order
clean & make hoop
bookclub book
meet chloe @limelight @ 6:05
call Halsey
find fan pulley!

Postal Central – t-shirt postage!

call Hal re: tube

make WHD signs
sell hoops donate 10%
fed ex!

cash
scotch tape
table
table cloth
get change!
to sell!
hoops
t-shirts

cat food
bananas
cookies

p/u pistons & cylinders from dan hall’s
drop off pistons & cylinders to Halsey
ORDER MAHLE’S!!
Hollywood Lighting -
buy black gaffer 1″ & 1/2″
“  neon ” 1″ & 1/2″
“  pink ” 1″ & 1/2″

Canyon Hoops demo
buy tubing?
buy tape?
discount?

velcro ties @ Home Depot

USPS
less than 13 oz
largest t-shirt weighs 8oz (1/2 lb)

My grandma passed away yesterday. I was holding her hand. It was unexpected. She always pulls through. I miss her…trying to call up her laugh in my head as much as possible.  I hope she comes to me in my dreams.

Not sure what happened but I feel pretty fucking good.  Maybe Burning Man caught up to me.  Still don’t know what I’m going to do about being unemployed AGAIN but somehow I’m not worried.  Sort of let the whole dating thing go away, too.  Feeling good about that as well.  Hmmmmm.  The house is a disaster – nothing new – but I’m seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.  What the hell happened?  Oh, maybe it’s because I drank coffee and ate bacon today.

This is to the guy who said we had chemistry, got what he wanted, then emailed me to let me know he didn’t feel a spark.  FUCK YOU!

yay! I feel better. 

So the new job went away.  Only 4 months.  I loved my job, who I worked with, my morning bike commute.  It was perfect.  It was announced the day before I was leaving for Burning Man…low ratings, focusing on the afternoon newscast.  WTF?  How ’bout better writing and less bullshit breaking news?

Be careful what you wish for.  I was fantasizing about staying until after it was over.  Well, TA DA!  I got it.

I really want to take advantage of this unexpected time off.  What to do next?  Time to reinvent!

Seriously…this is almost coming predictable.  Been going on really lovely dates.  Just one at a time.  No second dates.  The guys I’m interested in are not interested in me and vice versa.  Why am I so off base on my choices?  Grrrr!!!

I added “He’s Just Not Into You” to my Netflix queue.  Interesting.  Maybe I’m at a good place anyway.  He’s never going to call. I’m meeting very nice guys for drinks. No hurry. Things are feeling fine.  I was hoping to arrive at this place a lot sooner but I seem to be arriving…just need to get settled into it.

Can broken hearts be re-broken? A series of unrelated events caused an effect I had not anticipated. I cried over a breakup that happened years ago.  Where did that come from?  It came up from such a deep place, somewhere I hadn’t tapped into in so long.  I forgot it was there.  I guess I’m still protecting myself, choosing to date men who won’t get to that place.